All better.....for now

Zachary's EEG went well yesterday. It was more comfortable this time as it was not our first. Still, I always worry that he wont fall asleep like they need or he'll fidget too much and pull the wires off his head. But he did very well. Fell asleep, did everything that was asked of him, now we just wait for the results. Should be within the week -- lets see how much sleep I do or do not get in that time. Yes, we already know that he has epilepsy, but there has to be something that is making his behave the way he does. Not that I want anything to be wrong with him, but it would at least be comforting if they find something so that we can deal with it instead of going back to the drawing board (again) to figure out what is going on with him. So we wait.
As for the rest of the kids - Morgan and Brooklyn have been sick for a couple of days....Morgan is better and back at school and it appears that Brooklyn is better too :) Now just waiting for Zachary to wake up and hopefully we'll be back to a normal day.

Early Bird Gets the Nap....

Well there is not going to be enough coffee in the world to get me through today. Zachary is having another EEG this afternoon, so in preparation for that, he had to stay awake until midnight last night and then we had to get up at 5am so that he is good a tired when they do his EEG at 12:30pm. Last night he kept asking "mom is it bed time yet?"...of course, on the one night I need him to stay up, he's asking to go to bed. We made it until midnight though....barely. He crashed about 2 minutes to midnight on the couch, to which I snuck off to my own comfy bed. But having the alarm clock go off 5 hours later was less than delightful. So now he and I are up watching a movie...just need to keep him awake until this EEG. The last time we had one of these, we were only at the hospital for about an hour, so I'm hoping to then get home and have a nap as I'm going out to dinner with K and some guys from work tonight. It will be nice, but I'm going to have to drink some pretty strong coffee and catch a nap to avoid falling asleep at the dinner table later :)

I'm Just Me

This song has always been a favorite of mine. Mostly as it's just a great song & one of my most favorite uncles does an amazing job singing it, but lately it is more an anthem for my life. I'm just me. I'm not afraid of being true to myself, despite the ruffling of other peoples feathers. I cant imagine living a life that does not make me happy. I wonder how many people are living a life to please others? I know many. I wonder if they asked themselves what they actually wanted or how they wanted to live their lives....and if they knew that no one would judge (or better yet, not care what other people think, which is the path I took), if they would actually be honest with themselves. Too many people are living a life that they told to be living. They make choices based on what other people will think of them. Doubtful that it is even close to what they want. There is constant proof of this when they say 'we cant do that' 'we're not suppose to do that'. How sad to live a life where you can not be your real self. I had to make a choice. To continue to live a life of hypocrisy and unhappiness...but keeping the people around me happy or to live the life that I wanted, a life that makes me happy and makes me a better person, mother & wife - but came with the consequence of having people turn their backs on me and treat me differently. But when you are living a life that makes you happy and that you know is the life I both wanted and was meant to have - the opinion of others mattes very little.
So I'm just me..... but I'm a pretty great me!

Why Dont They Listen.....

After being in our new home 6 months, the phone call that I knew would at some point come....came. I'm not exactly sure why the message was not sent from our last location...you know, the one that said "The Young family have been asked to not be contacted". But I guess they had to try. After the first phone call with a very snotty person (mind you her attitude changed quickly when she realized I was not going to be bullied into doing what they "think is best for us") I was fairly certain that we would not hear anything further as I was pretty honest. But oh no..... two other people called within 2 days of each other, the last of which claiming that since I seem to have an attitude, perhaps it would be better if they spoke with my husband.... LMAO! I was quick to let them know that if they thought I had an attitude, they'd never survive K. It's now been about 4 days since the last brave one called...funny how when you start mentioning 'harassment' and 'legal action' that they finally will leave us alone. I don't call them every 2 days asking them why they go and wanting to fight with them about what they do and do not believe in.... so don't do it to me.